expect the unexpected.....five month

hohoho....almost five month i neglect this blog. i shut myself up from any social networking. there are sooooooo many things to share.

within this five month:
1. involved with an unexpected events..huhu...

2. meet with new friends and.... hehe again....not enemy...

3. register for my next study...

4. my hubby's birthday

5. meet with my SIL to be's family


soooo....be prepared and ...expect the unexpected.

rindu

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Mengapa sering menghimpit hati

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shut up if you don't know

sometimes it is better to shut your mouth when you don't know and it is good if you can share your knowledge and try to correct it if you have given wrong info.

this morning, one girl ask me which is which and since that is my area, so i tried to give her the answer and correct it when i found out that the answer was wrong. suddenly, there come one drosophila sound "eyeetttttttttttttt yeet yeet"(what sound is that? hehe..) stating that don't asked me Malay, i only know English. hmm...how??

miss them soo much

i miss them so much. i want to cry but i don't find any reason for that except for the missing part. i don't hate 'em. never will i hate peoples i love. i love them, wanna give them happiness if i can. wanna give them everything i have. wanna share everything with them. wanna make and see them happy like us. wanna do everything to them. but they misunderstood me. they don't wanna listen to me. they think i'm not being honest. they have soo many wrong thoughts. i hate it. it'd been almost two month i didn't call them. i didn't talk about them. but now, i feel sooo missing. i miss them so much. what can i do to fix what has happened when they don't want to and how can i help them if they refuse?

frust and happy

a little bit frust yesterday when i didn't reach my expectation and plan but i'm happy too as there's one person out there who always give me support and encourage me to fulfill my dream and interest. i don't want to talk about the frustrating part cause i don't want to make me remember it anymore. so, i'll tell about the happy part ONLY.

actually, the happy part starts last monday. that monday, when waiting for a respond for my apology to my unawareness on the use of one word (due to different culture), the person promise me something that will never cross my mind. too difficult for me to describe it in words as only me and me alone who knows the feeling. the blooming heart makes me feel alive.

first day...

smile....there's always first day or first time to everything. today is my first day working in office after almost two years doing a freelance job. Honestly, I'm more convenience working alone but due to some constrains I have to take this opportunity and work here. My mom and dad are the happiest people to hear this news. Me? I'm happy if they're happy. But deep inside here, i wish that my dream can become true. mmm...seems like i have to work harder and harder to achieve my dream. wish me luck my friend

i'm happy

hehe..it always took me month to write here. always stuck in finding words to describe my feeling. my feeling? no, actually more to what am i going to write. it's not supposed to be my feelings at all. mmm...these few days really meant something to me. yesterday, my hubby bought me a new sewing machine. love it and today I'm going to launch it. hehe...launching....don't know if that is the best word to use. never mind. at least i can share my feeling with everybody (those who read this entry la...hehe). mmm...btw, i get a new job there. my mom really happy to hear this. i know she always pray for me. mak and ayah never stop pray for me and never stop loving me. thanks mom, thanks dad and thanks hubby. you really light my life. i feel so much love. thank you thank you and thank you

?????

hmm..it's already new year and it almost past one month but i'm still the old me. the courage and the driving force now lost. even the hardworking me also are vanishing. ooooo.....i'm so afraid this might make me a loser. how can i change myself? the thought of HIJRAH always haunted me but i have no driving force to make it happen. it's not others fault but it's mine. i am the one who supposed to change and force myself to achieved my dream. hish...i can right??? hmm..i can..yes i can.