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hmm..it's already new year and it almost past one month but i'm still the old me. the courage and the driving force now lost. even the hardworking me also are vanishing. ooooo.....i'm so afraid this might make me a loser. how can i change myself? the thought of HIJRAH always haunted me but i have no driving force to make it happen. it's not others fault but it's mine. i am the one who supposed to change and force myself to achieved my dream. hish...i can right??? hmm..i can..yes i can.