first day...

smile....there's always first day or first time to everything. today is my first day working in office after almost two years doing a freelance job. Honestly, I'm more convenience working alone but due to some constrains I have to take this opportunity and work here. My mom and dad are the happiest people to hear this news. Me? I'm happy if they're happy. But deep inside here, i wish that my dream can become true. mmm...seems like i have to work harder and harder to achieve my dream. wish me luck my friend

i'm happy

hehe..it always took me month to write here. always stuck in finding words to describe my feeling. my feeling? no, actually more to what am i going to write. it's not supposed to be my feelings at all. mmm...these few days really meant something to me. yesterday, my hubby bought me a new sewing machine. love it and today I'm going to launch it. hehe...launching....don't know if that is the best word to use. never mind. at least i can share my feeling with everybody (those who read this entry la...hehe). mmm...btw, i get a new job there. my mom really happy to hear this. i know she always pray for me. mak and ayah never stop pray for me and never stop loving me. thanks mom, thanks dad and thanks hubby. you really light my life. i feel so much love. thank you thank you and thank you

?????

hmm..it's already new year and it almost past one month but i'm still the old me. the courage and the driving force now lost. even the hardworking me also are vanishing. ooooo.....i'm so afraid this might make me a loser. how can i change myself? the thought of HIJRAH always haunted me but i have no driving force to make it happen. it's not others fault but it's mine. i am the one who supposed to change and force myself to achieved my dream. hish...i can right??? hmm..i can..yes i can.